Farewell

Tonight I lost someone close to me. Tonight She drove off with Patsy. I will never see Patsy again, my sunshine has dwindled away into the horizon and merged with the beautiful sunset in my heart along with Her. Like the little boy and girl walking into the stars, they wade through the water and become one with my memories. Over the past few days since she left my apartment I realized that I can no longer be a part of her world as any character. She cannot let go and grow with me around. I want to hold on to the good things that I had left from our time together and being a part of her world right now just brushes away at those fond memories like sand paper on wood. With each stroke more pieces fly into the wind. This song reminds me of her and is the soundtrack I have chosen to remember her by...

What the world needs now is love, sweet love
It's the only thing that there's just too little of
What the world needs now is love, sweet love,
No not just for some but for everyone.

...there will always be a special place for her in my heart, but I cannot sacrifice myself everytime she needs it. It hurts too much to give and give and in return I get pain...

What the world needs now is love, sweet love
It's the only thing that there's just too little of
What the world needs now is love, sweet love,
No, not just for some but for everyone.

...my feelings for her are not that of a lover, not anymore. I know that inside she is a great person. Somehow I know that we are still going to be close, that even though we will not be friends anymore and not talk or see each other again for a long long time, she would be someone who did care for me and someone I will never forget...

Lord, we don't need another mountain,
There are mountains and hillsides enough to climb
There are oceans and rivers enough to cross,
Enough to last till the end of time.

...I know it may seem like I still want Her sweet embrace again, as if though I yearned for what we had. In truth it is the fact that we shared a lot together in five years and it is very hard to let go of someone that you shared a lot of emotion with during those five years. I wish this did not end this way because I really wanted a strong friendship...

What the world needs now is love, sweet love
No, not just for some but for everyone.

...she is out of my life now and I am out of hers. I do not know if we will ever be chracters in the stories of our lives again. This book has ended and it is time to move to the next one. I know I have been saying that a lot but this time, this time it really is happening...

What the world needs now is love, sweet love
It's the only thing that there's just too little of
What the world needs now is love, sweet love,
No, not just for some, oh, but just for
Every, every, everyone.


Lyrics By: Burt Bacharach and the Posies
Performed By (in my mind): Tara Kocourek
Photo: "One Last Picture"
Photo By: S. Tobler
Notes on Photo: This is the last picture of Her and I that was taken and the first (and last) picture of us together as friends.